I still love painting the sea. Recently I have been stuck what to paint, worrying about my first exhibition, am I moving forward or am I moving backwards or am I moving sideways?
The MA aims to have a continuous line where you continually move forward and see a path through your work. Building on everything you have learned from the previous painting. However, I have been spending so many days just thinking I cannot paint, which has put a downer on everything I paint. I feel I’m beginning to lose the love of painting, and I hate it.
I went for another walk at ynyslas beach, one of my favourite places to be. This time a little less sunny! -the weather hasn’t been helping my work too much, I’m very much a painter who can only paint the season we are in.
I decided to paint something more representational, and perhaps a step back to my previous BA exhibition work. But after a lot of thought, I don’t think that matters
I’ve been told that taking a step sideways or backwards is a bad thing, but knowing the effect that trying to push forward constantly is having on me, I don’t think I could make it worse. Besides, if you keep building bricks on top of one and other, they will topple over. You need a stronger foundation to build up. And I think this is the same as painting; I think I needed to take a brick off from the top. - I know cliche and a strange analogy, but since finishing the painting ( pictured below), I feel a lot happier about painting again.
50cm X 50cm
Acrylic on Mdf